All those golden autumn days the sky was full of wings. Wings beating low over the blue water of Silver Lake, wings beating high in the blue air far above it . . . bearing them all away to the green fields in the South.
- Laura Ingalls Wilder
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Too many thoughts, not enough words to put them down on paper... or.. what should I call this "paper" ? *shrugs*
I am so tired. It feels like I am 90-years-old, I am not kidding. I have to work next to school (My last year at high school even) I have to study hard to make sure I'll be accepted into the University in Oslo (UiO) and now I am babysitting my younger sister for 10 days ALONE with work, school and my wee lil dog Dingo + private course in Japanese and song+choir practice two times a week.
At school I don't feel comfortable at all, I have no friends in class and I get (more) depressed when I see Rere's class and what a good atmosphere they have in their classes (I have only one class with them so..)
I feel very vulnerable now, because I am now over 18 and that means I cannot go to my shrink anymore, so now I am there only twice.. IN a MONTH. And that's hard. I struggle a lot still, even though I've achieved a lot this year I still don't feel ready to go out there alone...
Oka, enough of that self-pitty shit (tried not to write it like that though..). Samhain is here soon and I am quite excited, I am planning my annual Halloween dinner. Going to have lost of fun this year with quizzez, costumes, pumpkins, food and treats all evening.
~~ Aki
Yeah.. that's all I think. Take care everyone
....... I'll be home for Christmas......
Miserable
Tired
I am so happy~~ THANK YOU SO MUCH ~~<3
